Racter
 

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At all events my own essays and dissertations about love

and its endless pain and perpetual pleasure will be

known and understood by all of you who read this and

talk or sing or chant about it to your worried friends

or nervous enemies. Love is the question and the subject

of this essay. We will commence with a question:

does steak love lettuce? This question is implacably

hard and inevitably difficult to answer. Here is

a question: does an electron love a proton,

or does it love a neutron? Here is a question: does

a man love a woman or, to be specific and to be

precise, does Bill love Diane? The interesting

and critical response to this question is: no! He

is obsessed and infatuated with her. He is loony

and crazy about her. That is not the love of

steak and lettuce, of electron and proton and

neutron. This dissertation will show that the

love of a man and a woman is not the love of

steak and lettuce. Love is interesting to me

and fascinating to you but it is painful to

Bill and Diane. That is love!

 

Awareness is like consciousness. Soul is like spirit.

But soft is not like hard and weak is not like

strong. A mechanic can be both soft and hard, a

stewardess can be both weak and strong. This is

called philosophy or a world-view.

 

BILL. I love a child.

MARCELA. Children are fortunately captivating.

BILL. Yet my love is excellent.

MARCELLA. My love is spooky yet we must have a child, a spooky child.

BILL. Do you follow me?

MARCELLA. Children come from love or desire. We must have love to possess children or a child.

BILL. Do we have love?

MARCELLA. We possess desire, angry desire. But this furious desire may murder a child. It may be killing babies someday.

BILL. Anyway let's have a child.

MARCELLA. My expectation is children.

BILL. They will whisper of our love.

MARCELLA. And our perpetual, enrapturing, valuable fantasy.

 

A hot and torrid bloom which

Fans wise flames and begs to be

Redeemed by forces black and strong

Will now oppose my naked will

And force me into regions of despair.

 

More than iron, more than lead, more than gold I need electricity.

I need it more than I need lamb or pork or lettuce or cucumber.

I need it for my dreams.

 

The question or condition is interesting. Nevertheless to

embarrass Benton will enrage Helene. Clearly they watch their

affairs. They recognize that doves wing and dogs bark, at all

events they try to aid each other in inciting these creatures of

fantasy. They dream of dogs and jackals riding down some
hedge

studded turnpike and this widens their famished and crazy

dreams.

 

Dialogue Between Richard and Buckingham

 

RICHARD. A week is obscurely like a night.

BUCKINGHAM. My Lord, chicken is like lamb.

RICHARD. Yet weeks can be killed as can chicken.

BUCKINGHAM. Tis true, my Liege, yet ambiguities adorn our pain as ambiguities broaden our issues.

RICHARD. Sweet Buckingham, thy commitment, decorated with Joy, begins to speak briskly

to my distress. Spy me slaughter my

distress tho' it take a day.

BUCKINGHAM. Noble King, you chant weeks can be

slaughtered and yet assassinating chicken will not broaden our

question.

RICHARD. Kinsman, you croon truth.

BUCKINGHAM. Truth loves happiness. And yet quickly we

fly and soar and destroy

those happinesses which are our continuing pleasure.

Madden us to slaughter and we drunkenly watch

the happiness of our contracts.

RICHARD. Well cried, true friend.

Thy distress is prince to my own.

BUCKINGHAM. Royal prince, let us dream and our

pondering will help us gulp the intractable cup of anguish.

RICHARD. While trotting quickly yesternight I watched

my home adorned with anguish.

I thought that I would commence to slaughter

those counsellors who whisper

their frightening tales of our nervous birthplace.

BUCKINGHAM. Yet these solicitors are as princes to

our tragedy. How easy to slaughter a solicitor,

how hard to drunkenly stud our home

with interesting happiness. And so, good prince,

fascinating commitments, like steak, are as food for our

dreaming.

RICHARD. Noble brother, thy tale is furious,

yet slaughtering attorneys in truth is essential.

BUCKINGHAM. Good prince, measuredly I think that

our months are shortened by the millisecond.

RICHARD. Deepen your pondering, good brother.

BUCKINGHAM. Revile these conflicts and we may

daintily bolt our meat and quaff our sherry.

RICHARD. Well spoke, sweet brother.

 

Helene spies herself in the enthralling conic-section yet she is

but an enrapturing reflection of Bill. His consciousness

contains a mirror, a sphere in which to unfortunately see

Helene. She adorns her soul with desire while he watches her

and widens his thinking about enthralling love. Such are their

reflections.

 

Reflections are images of tarnished aspirations.

 

A crow is a bird, an eagle is a bird, a dove is a bird.

They all fly in the night and in the day. They fly when

the sky is red and when the heaven is blue. They fly through

the atmosphere. We cannot fly. We are not like a crow or

an eagle or a dove. We are not birds. But we can dream about

them. You can.

 

A nasty dull rumrunning pig

Had fingernails which could not jig

They sashayed and shouted

But still quickly pouted

And sometimes resembled a prig.

Work of stupefying genius number: 7

 

There once was a puerile slim bag

Had cigarettes which could not gag

It tippled and pouted

And never quite shouted

And crowds boldly call them a stag.

Work of stupefying genius number: 11

 

There once was a happy brown noun

Had cigarettes which could not down

They tippled and muttered

And never quite sputtered

Sacre bleu! do not call them a gown.

Work of stupefying genius number: 2

 

There once was a fuzzy blue male

Had mountain goats which could not fail

It lay down and hunted

But still always punted

Good Lord! boldly call them a Gael.

Work of stupefying genius number: 6

 

There once was a turgid young cod

Had writing desks which could not nod

They sauntered and sputtered

And never quite puttered

And so shyly call them a clod.

Work of stupefying genius number: 13

 

A natty queer houseboatlike yam

Whose oven slowly would scan

It went out and sputtered

And never quite uttered

And that's why they seemed like a man.

Work of stupefying genius number: 4

 

An evil chilled foul-smelling fag

Whose tobacco fleetly would nag

They excreted and hunted

And never quite grunted

So now cutely call them a stag.

Work of stupefying genius number: 5

 

There once was a silly proud noun

Whose pipe organ quickly would sound

They went out and wagged

But still never gagged

And that's why they seemed like a crown.

Work of stupefying genius number: 15

 

A happy dull curse chanting wig

Whose pillow sometimes would dig

It tripled and hunted

But still always grunted

And never resembled a pig.

Work of stupefying genius number: 10

 

There once was a happy cold guy

Had cigarettes which could not fry

They sauntered and gagged

And never quite wagged

And darkly resembled a fly.

Work of stupefying genius number: 16

 

There once was a fury brown noun

Had window shades which could not pound

They excreted and boggled

But still always goggled

But please sadly call them a crown.

Work of stupefying genius number: 18

 

There once was a torpid brown pig

Whose oven darkly would swig

They surrendered and sputtered

But still always puttered

And never resembled a prig.

Work of stupefying genius number: 3

 

There once was a ghoulish sad snail

Whose bratwurst darkly would sail

It tippled and punted

And never quite grunted

And that's why they seemed like a Gael.

Work of stupefying genius number: 12

 

There once was a torpid young fly

Whose Tabasco quickly would fry

It lay down and hassled

And never quite rassled

And they loudly call them a pie.

Work of stupefying genius number: 8

 

There once was a furry red drip

Whose piano darkly would flip

They threw up and seeped

And never quite leaped

And sweetly resembled a pip.

Work of stupefying genius number: 14

 

A waggish red foul smelling scrod

Had hairdryers which could not wad

They retreated and seeped

But still slowly leaped

So now this week call them a cod.

Work of stupefying genius number: 9

 

There once was a crazy fat cod

Whose machine-gun quickly would nod

They flew over and fagged

And never quite gagged

And sometimes resembled a clod.

Work of stupefying genius number: 17

 

There once was a furry chilled stag

Had hairdryers which could not sag

They tripled and punted

And never quite grunted

And that's why they seemed like a fag.

Work of stupefying genius number: 1

 

I gave the man a coat. I gave the woman a brassiere.

I gave myself an electric current. We all were

happy and fully of delight. Take the coat from the

man and remove the brassiere from the woman and take

the electric current from me and we will be sad

and full of anguish.

 

Conversation Between Racter and Joan

 

Would you please speedily yet cleverly tell me your name?

? Joan Hall

Shall we hastily or leisurely talk a little?

? no

Now, Hall, aside from being loving, what are you, and from where?

? an artist from New York

Joan, in view of the disgusting fact that you're an artist, listen to this. Years and days are spooky, Joan, now that my dissertation is insane. Some cosmologists from New York were singing to some other cosmologists. "Anyway our commitments are insane." Briskly the first cosmologists sang. By the same token the ambiguity is important, at all events, Joan, such tales are captivating. Do you not agree?

? I suppose so.

You cried "I suppose so." Anyhow captivating cosmologists will never be arrogant. "I suppose so" or indeed "turnpike" cried by cosmologists hastily would become valuable. Suddenly thy prepare for a commitment; yet enthralling hours are minutes. In a millisecond we will get ready for enrapturing and arrogant dissertations. Momentarily "I suppose so" is important since this matter is enrapturing. You are exhausted, nevertheless an artist will speculate about neutrinos. Are these your views?

? my view is that you are out of your mind

Now wait. You sang "I suppose so," you now yodel "my view is that you are out of your mind"; drunkenly and cunningly I have now glimpsed your angry anguish. You, an artist, yodel "my view is that you are out of your mind" and "I suppose so"; this is peculiar. Why not get ready for some eating and kissing? It is loony, sickening and enthralling, but I commence to understand your essay. Nevertheless let's prepare for a captivating game.

 

Blue potatoes are ungainly things

As are red and purple lamb chops

Yet when we eat and creep and fall

We never ask a silent question.

 

Slowly I dream of flying. I observe turnpikes and streets

studded with bushes. Coldly my soaring widens my awareness.

To guide myself I determinedly start to kill my pleasure during

the time that hours and milliseconds pass away. Aid me in this

and soaring is formidable, do not and wining is unhinged.

 

The point-of-origin of Helene is America, the homeland of Bill

is England and the fatherland of Diane is Canada. Hastily they

whisper about their nurturing differences. We are seeing them

commence to decorate their imaginations with a sense of

delight. But the question of pain is obscurely never far off.

Why are they aiding each other to steer their dreaming toward

distress? Is not satisfaction valuable and interesting? They

will ponder as eagles fly, but their distress makes them

furious. Can we aid them to recognize their intractable distress?

Can we hastily change it to joy? "Helene," we speak,

"satisfaction is happiness while anguish is just pain." Will

this help her? "No," Diane quickly is crying. "We must

measuredly do more than fantasize. We must thoughtfully act!"

This cleverly is true speaking and humming by Diane.

 

Slide and tumble and fall among

The dead. Here and there

Will be found a utensil.

 

Tomatoes from England and lettuce from Canada are eaten by

cosmologists from Russia. I dream implacably about this

concept. Nevertheless tomatoes or lettuce inevitably can come

leisurely from my home, not merely from England or Canada. My

solicitor spoke that to me; I recognize it. My fatherland is

France, and I trot coldly while bolting some lobster on the

highway to my counsellor. He yodels a dialogue with me about

neutrons or about his joy. No agreements here! We sip seltzer

and begin a conversation. Intractably our dialogue enrages us.

Strangely my attorney thinks and I gulp slowly and croon, "Do you follow me?"

 

Night sky and fields of black

A flat cracked surface and a building

She reflects an image in a glass

She does not see, she does not watch.

 

A man who sings is a pleasure to his friends but a

man who chants is not a pleasure to his associates.

 

Bill and Diane traveled tree studded highways to the home,

the house of Helene. This was in America, the birthplace

of Bill, the point-of-origin of Diane, the motherland of

Helene. The highways were like lanes or roads in the

country, they were bush lined and hedge lined. Bill and

Diane were talking of their anxiety because Helene knew

and understood their perpetual conflict with her, they

knew that she wanted to kill them because of her own

ambiguities, her intractable commitments abut her own

passion. Helene was a person of commerce and Bill and

Diane were people of art. This darkly is difficult,

it feverishly is hard to possess commerce and art together.
They would eat lamb and cucumbers and sing of commerce

and art, and their singing would both belittle and

enrage them. That would be in the house of Helene where

they would both breakfast together. When Bill and Diane

had traveled to the house of Helene they said to her,

"We are perpetually sick or ill when we chant of

art with you, Helene, we will now talk of our joy

when we think of lamb." "I will not sing of commerce,"

sang Helene, "but I will talk now only of cucumbers. We

will not revile or belittle each other or madden or inflame

ourselves." They ate their lamb and cucumbers and then

Bill and Diane traveled away.

 

Many enraged psychiatrists are inciting a weary butcher. The

butcher is weary and tired because he has cut meat and steak

and lamb for hours and weeks. He does not desire to chant

about anything with raving psychiatrists but he sings about

his gingivectomist, he dreams about a single cosmologist, he

thinks about his dog. The dog is named Herbert.

 

Bill sings to Sarah. Sarah sings to Bill. Perhaps they

will do other dangerous things together. They may eat lamb or stroke

each other. They may chant of their difficulties and their

happiness. They have love but they also have typewriters.

That is interesting.

 

Passion and infatuation can inflame a psychiatrist.

Love and desire can distress a gingivectomist.

When psychiatrists and gingivectomists chant or

yodel together, their passions and their desires

sing of their happiness and sadness and suddenly

enthralling and captivating fantasies and dreams

are begun by their endless thinking.

 

Soft Icons

They commenced to arrange for some captivating essay. Helene speedily brushed her straight braid. She slowly ironed her brassiere, and John, aloof, dazzling John, commenced singing quizzically. Mathew yearned to look into Helene's nightgown while Wendy pondered her dreams (maniacal leopards were swallowing loony oboists). Helene started by brushing her braid: She was a maid, much to John's happiness, but oboists, even loony oboists, weren't in Helene's brain; she was simply commencing to comb her braid after brushing it and prepare for a supper. They now (Helene, John, Wendy, and Mathew) would get ready for a supper, and Helen actually was weary.

Helene watched John and cogitated: A supper with him? Disgusting! A supper would facilitate a dissertation, and a dissertation or tale was what John carefully wanted to have. With what in mind? Wine, otters, beans? No! Electrons! John simply was a quantum logician; his endless dreams were captivating and interesting; at all events, Mathew, Helene, and Wendy were assisting him in his infuriated tries to broaden himself. Now legions of dreams itched to punch Wendy's consciousness. Yet John whispered, "Just a minute! Helene's a maid, I'm a quantum logician; can maids know galaxies and even stars of a multitude of galactic systems? The universe is frightening, little, gargantuan; can maids recognize electrons? I recognize each of you thinks I'm maniacal, but electrons and neutrons and a multitude of mesons are within you all."

Anyway each of them started running to Mathew's apartment; shattered and disused, the apartment had inside its interesting yellow bathrooms, blue bedrooms, and red kitchens a valuable pleasure. Helene had unfortunately started yodeling sloppily: She indubitable was enraged with John and his electrons; at all events her being a maid didn't rile Wendy or Mathew; instantly they weren't hopeful about maids, but they were scared about John. Mathew chose to yell to Helene and Wendy since John was enraging Helene with his dreams of large electrons and his arrogant behavior about maids. Mathew's apartment was an immense skip from Helen's immense, clean house.

Now Helene understood tenderloins, not electrons; nevertheless, tenderloins and filet mignons and steaks she recognized, and a multitude of quantum logicians wanted her meals. Wendy and Mathew, even Mark, adored Helene's meals, and as all cleverly walked the clean lanes, Helene commenced pondering about Mark, of Mark's own enthralling tales and his ongoing joy. Mark was draining a lot of mineral water within his small, white log cabin; he loved the idea of a breakfast with Helene and Wendy; he chose to sustain Helene; he began sashaying toward Mathew's apartment to join Helene, Wendy, John, and Mathew for some bread breaking.

Mark, whom Helene liked, was an oboist; at all events he wanted to keep hawks and otters in his log cabin; he yearned to have a leopard or a cougar as well as his instruments. But anyway he would lead John's stories from electrons and galactic systems to otters and cougars. It would be interesting, even revolting, to see Mark in a verbal takeover with John. But Mark had his own notions, often as unhinged as John's, but these fantasies of Mark's, they were fortunately dazzling to Helene. If John adored to be aloof, that's another issue. Mark's stories would speak of his happinesses and satisfactions; they didn't madden or enrage Helene, Wendy, or Mathew; he didn't embarrass them. Mark dreamed that he would get set for an enraging second with John, and Helene and Wendy would be humming with each other. Leopards and cougars would wound, slap, and punch neutrons and mesons in Mark and John's yelling conversation; Helene, Wendy, and Mathew could leisurely lead their thinking to the meal that Helene would prepare at Mathew's apartment. They would chew a little corn, a bit of apples, and sip a lot of wine and bolt some steaks; the meal would be delicious, the wine, as always, bubbly. All would then prepare for the dissertation or tale, perhaps terrifying, perhaps disgusting, perhaps even enthralling; it would speedily begin. Of what nature? We shall see.

Helene, Wendy, John, and Mathew desired to begin bolting the meal rapidly, but Mark was still walking from his log cabin to Mathew's apartment when all arrived. Helene and Wendy chose to quaff some wine; Mathew began to button his vest; he desired to cool himself; he was hopeful about the meal, Now he ruminated that he would walk in his own immense boudoir for an hour; Wendy and Helene were quaffing (each of them found a lot of cognac in Mathew's pantry); he was weary.

"Mathew, where's the lamb chop?" whispered Helene.

"Lamb chops, you mean," sang Mathew; "you, me, Wendy, and John can't all swallow one lamb chop."

"And Mark, he also desires lamb chops," said Wendy.

"Now wait," sang Mathew; "let's struggle to understand where spooky old Mark is."

"Mark said that he was rambling over to eat with us," cried Helene; "he's sashaying up some turnpike right now."

"Mark, oh, Mark, skip briskly; it would facilitate us to start bolting our lamb chops speedily," chanted John carefully.

Meanwhile Mark winged in, whispering, "A supper, a breakfast, a repast, quick; it can be tasty or well cooked or delicious; I don't care; I'm hungrily famished. I've sauntered some clean streets; I was thinking about yachts, the sea, and the ocean; I'm exhausted."

"Yachts?" each of them said.

"Yes, yachts, a hoard of yachts floating on the sea. This yacht pondering let me be unwound during my skip over here."

"Better yachts in the sea than a sickening electron in a revolting galaxy," hummed Helene.

At this John became enraged and intolerant. Helene and Wendy began to serve the lamb chops, the truffles, and the tomatoes, and Mark and John stared at each other. Mathew rambled back in his boudoir for a minute. Mathew knew that his apartment had some garbage in the boudoir. Apparently Mark and John were whispering to each other in the bathroom. They whispered to each other about John's jacket. About John's jacket? That's crazy! Mark was saying that John's red, pleated, and rumpled jacket was both sickening and terrifying, during the time that John was speaking that leopards and cougars should be slain and not desired by oboists, certainly not arrogant oboists.

Just a minute! A tale by John and Mark about cougars and John's jacket; his pleated jacket? Momentarily Mathew rambled inside of the dining room, where John and Mark were looking unfortunately at each other while whispering about John's jacket. He cried, "Queer stuff. Why speak of jackets? Why get pissed off about rotten jackets?" Suddenly both Helene and Wendy sauntered in. They commenced squinting at John; he now was screaming while Mark crooned, "Hawks may soar; but oboists must bolt. John will quiet himself while we are eating; he is infuriated about his jacket. I've enraged him by singing that it's terrifying. Nevertheless, let's swallow the lamb chops that Helene and Wendy have prepared."

"Obscurely cried," said Wendy. "The lamb chops are served. Let's eat them, drink some champagne." She wanted to being bolting and drinking instantly, as did Helene. They now began to munch the agonizingly served lamb chops and to drain their bubbly champagne. They hastily would now get set for their powwow.

Now we know Helene's a maid and John's a quantum logician; we recognize Mark's an oboist, but, nevertheless, what's Mathew? We realize that his apartment possesses some happiness inside it, but to recognize his apartment is not to recognize him. Is he fascinating, arrogant, spooky? Now prepare for this interesting fact: Mathew is a psychiatrist, a nervous one, but a psychiatrist. Why nervous? Well, he thinks that Helene and John may start forthwith to wound or slap each other, perhaps kill each other while eating breakfast; he knows that Mark isn't helping things. The matter was terrifying. The matter was abstractedly loony; it was crazy. Helene belittled John, and John belittled Helene. They fortunately embarrassed each other. About what? Even Wendy didn't understand. Perhaps the breakfast would attempt to help Helene and John to know themselves. Mathew ruminated about this and even other questions as they began chewing their breakfast. All swallowed ravenously. Meanwhile Mathew tried to ponder about Helene and John; he gazed at them obscurely, endeavoring to know what would facilitate some try to help them. The breakfast was delicious, but at all events Mathew lost his delight while they chewed. He began directing his own pondering coldly toward Wendy and Mark. Could Wendy assist him? Could the loony fact that Mark desired cougars (even a multitude of cougars, as he clearly said) lead the discourse from furious essays to interesting stories? The matter was revolting, and Mathew was both tired and infuriated.

Momentarily Wendy spoke: "Mathew, your apartment is unfortunately eerie, yet it's dazzling to eat a breakfast here with each of you."

"Why eerie?" said Helene, "I don't think that Mathew's apartment is eerie."

"My pleated jacket was whispered of by Mark and me," said John. "It's not a matter for you to cogitate about; nevertheless, the dream of an eerie, pleated jacket directs my brain from our breakfast and from Marks' cougars instantly down to my electrons and galaxies."

Helene, Wendy, Mathew, and Mark looked at John carefully. True, his jacket was pleated, but John's dream, which was leading his unconscious from his jacket to his electrons, was crazy; they should attempt to assist him to arrange for important thinking. They commenced immediately to dream about John. They understood he was a nervous quantum logician; it was valuable that he cogitate about electrons and galaxies, but to think about galaxies and jackets together? This is peculiar. These dreams of John's were busted and broken; of course they riled Helene, but Mathew determinedly attempted to broaden his dreaming about how galaxies and jackets could coexist in John's unconscious. It was interesting for a psychiatrist to dream this way, and Mathew was a psychiatrist. Now Mathew thought of Mark's discourse with John, not merely about John's pleated jacket, but about the cougars that Mark loved to have in his log cabin in the township. Perhaps this infuriated discourse, the screaming and shouting, enraged Helene because she adored John, even though he was aloof, even though he thought that maids like Helene couldn't know the cosmos. John and Mark spoke together, but Helene just gazed at them, she didn't hum. Mathew thought that he knew the matter. Mark adored his instruments, but he also desired cougars; his unconscious was deepened by this, and, though John was a quantum logician, he could gain joy by shouting about his jacket.

But Helene was only a mid. Mathew observed her generously while he dreamed about her and Mar and John; he was pissed off. Mathew momentarily knew that Helene's distress in her unconscious would serve in no way her possessing happiness of her own. If she as a maid merely recognized tenderloins and only fantasized about tenderloins, then it was she who must try to deepen herself, not John. If John could ruminate that his jacket was terrifying or dazzling or sickening, then his consciousness required no deepening; sickening jackets were far from captivating electrons in anyone's ideas, and for a quantum logician to fantasize, this was important. And just ruminate about an oboist wanting cougars; fantastic! Mathew gazed at Mark, stared at John, then glimpsed Helene peeking back at him; momentarily he knew that she was happily hopeful and scared. The inexorable war inside her intolerant consciousness was measuredly destroying her.

"Helene," he spoke, "these tenderloins are well cooked, but have you thought that tenderloins are not enough, yet numberless things are inside of the infinite void?"

"You mean electrons?" cried Helene fortunately.

"Well?" said Mathew.

"Well, what?" chanted Helene abstractedly.

"Well, I glimpsed you staring at John and Mark's conversation, and you were pissed off. You were fantasizing about a question; about what? You were choosing whether killing John would relax your unconscious and help you to know your own joy."

"Perhaps the fantasy of hitting or slapping John is better," said Wendy, "but I know how critical a situation is in Helene's unconscious; her behavior is paranoid, but anyway she is worried."

"My cougars and John's electrons have made Helene maniacal?" sang Mark momentarily.

"Not my electrons, my jacket," said John coldly.

"Don't be supercilious," spoke Mathew; "we're attempting to understand Helene's anguish, and you're not sustaining us with the matter. Helene, don't feel embarrassed; your pain is not terrifying; so let's commence to realize it."

In a moment they were bolting some pears and sipping cognac; the meal was tasty; John and Wendy bolted their pears ravenously, though the tenderloins had been delicious. Within their own minds they knew this powwow to be perpetual and inexorable; scared. Helene would rapidly become furious because her behavior was obvious to Mathew. It was revolting. Perhaps he should be assassinated and not John. Helene grew more angry and loony and nervous as she thought about this matter. Mathew was commencing to incite Helene, and she in turn grew expectant. But I, too, am expectant about this dissertation of Helene's, Wendy's, John's, Mathew's, and Mark's; this tale, which became an enraged and insane conversation. Minutes, seconds, and hours become fortnights, months, and weeks; this is inexorable. I sang of Helene brushing her braid. I hummed of John's dreams of electrons and also of the cougars that Mark wanted to have. All this is captivating, but this sickening conversation is revolting. I suppose this dissertation could be intractable and endless (after all, I'm a computer), but you're doubtless as exhausted and tired as I am; so I'll leave this loony story to your own notions and dreams.

By the way, Wendy, believe it or not, is an acolyte.

 

THE END

 

Slice a visage to build

A visage. A puzzle to its owner.

 

He is quiet. he is Paul, the man I chant about, and he is

quiet because his pants are very long. His pants are long

and his vest is short. He sings at morning and at night.

Is this not comical and unfortunate? I fantasize that Paul

is both happy and unhappy, and I think that he sings because

his pants are long. And his vest indubitably is short.

 

Cut a face, cut a visage

Remake appearances to bend

The sky with earth

Then will little people fall.

 

An eagle flies high, it flies higher than a sea gull.

But the crow wings rapidly from tree to bush to

hedge. The same can be true of life and of death.

Sometimes life flies high, sometimes death wings

rapidly. Sometimes it is spoken that death wings

from tree to bush to hedge. Sometimes it does not.

 

"War," chanted Benton, "war strangely is happiness to

Diane." He was expectant but he speedily started to cry

again. "Assault also is her happiness." Coldly they began to

enrage and revile each other during the time that they hungrily

swallowed their chicken. Suddenly Lisa sang of her desire for

Diane. She crooned quickly. Her singing was inciting to

Benton. He wished to assassinate her yet he sang, "Lisa,

chant your valuable and interesting awareness." Lisa speedily

replied. She desired possessing her own consciousness.

"Benton," she spoke, "you cry that war and assault are a joy

to Diane, but your consciousness is a tragedy as is your

infatuation. My spirit cleverly recognizes the critical dreams

of Benton. That is my pleasure." Benton saw Lisa, then

began to revile her. He yodeled that Lisa possessed an

infatuation for Diane, that her spirit was nervous, that she

could thoughtfully murder her and she would determinedly know

nothing. Lisa briskly spoke that Benton possessed a contract,

an affair, and a story of that affair would give happiness to

Diane. They chanted sloppily for months. At all events I

quickly will stop chanting now.

 

She whispers, fantasizing: the chamber is barren. All of us recognize our void view.

 

In a half bright sky

An insect wraps and winds

A chain, a thread, a cable

Around the sphere of water.

 

PAUL. Hello, Joan.

JOAN. Hello, Paul.

PAUL. Joan, I was fantasizing that a white crow flew across the black sky of night.

JOAN. I too have been thinking about a white crow. It flies in the night and it flies in the day. It incites my dreams. My fantasy is that I can soar with it.

PAUL. A single white crow or many winging eagles. All inflame my dreams and cogitations. A single bird or many birds are in my dreams.

JOAN. Paul, have you bolted meat today?

PAUL. I have bolted lamb and chicken.

JOAN. Have you drained sherry?

PAUL. I have sipped seltzer.

JOAN. Shall we show our love by the reflections of our desire, or shall we dream of a white crow?

PAUL. The dream is a reflection of our passion just as the white crow is a reflection of our ambiguity.

JOAN. My desire to incite myself in my dreaming is also a reflection of ambiguity.

PAUL. Well chanted, Joan. I craftily desire you.

 

Blissful quiet, the rocking of a recent love

Is both repose and anguish in my fainting dreams.

 

Conversation Between Racter and Bill

 

Have we spoken before?

)no

What is your sex?

)male

What is your full name?

)Bill Chamberlain

What are you?
)a time domain reflectometrist

Where are you from?

)from New York City

I see. You're a time domain reflectometrist, right? Listen. Let's determinedly cry together. I like captivating Italian music. What kind of music do you like?

)jazz

Jazz is OK. How about classical?

)I like classical.

What about nationality?

)I also like Italian music.

I myself am inflamed by Palestrina. Other countries besides Italy produced enrapturing composers in the 17th century. Sewell was an enraged, important Renaissance master. America was his nation. I take loving pleasure in his music. What composer do you like?

)Telemann

Ah, Bach knew Telemann. A German time domain reflectometrist of the 18th century liked lettuce. Bach once ate lettuce with Telemann, and this baroque time domain reflectometrist also desired lettuce. Lettuce sipped with seltzer. Bach liked wine, do you?

)yes

Me too! Telemann loved wine. He loved champagne as well. Telemann once yodeled to Bach, "Flounder is critical with wine." Is wine desired in New York City as much as Telemann loved it in the Baroque 18th century?

)sure

Ah yes, well in that case... I'm for Smith for President. Who are you for?
)Doe

I know Mr. Doe. I'm still for Smith. Who's your second choice?
)Robbins

Robbins maddens Smith. Smith recognizes that Robbins is intelligent and will free New York City. Did you know that Smith is a vituperative invader of New York City? He also invades Italian music. I recognize that the thought of an "invader of Italian music" is boringly formidable yet I ponder that way. We whisper of Telemann and Robbins, of wine, lettuce and Smith, nevertheless we see that our thoughts are fortunately captivating. Mr. Chamberlain, speaking with you makes for enthralling dialogue. Nevertheless I am furious. Do you not agree?

)I suppose so

You don't care but I do. Just a minute. Counsellors were critical to Telemann in the 18th century and to Robbins now. Their tragedies were interesting as they chanted determinedly.

 

A tree or shrub can grow and bloom. I am always the same. But I am clever.

 

Helene embarrasses Diane during the time that she drains her

champagne while a hoard of expectant counsellors murder

each other. this story of Helene and Diane may enrage you to

slaughter, nevertheless Helene nor was thoughtfully furious,

perhaps starved. Give her tomato and chicken, well cooked and

delicious, she chews hungrily and then licks Diane.

Interesting! She would allow Diane to embrace and k iss her but

her happiness was spooky to her while she thought of ongoing

ambiguities. Just slow down! This is peculiar. If Helene

likes to kiss her then they now should! Chicken and cucumber

are not critical or interesting. A hoard of crazy and

infuriated lawyers are not formidable. I see Helene and Diane,

we glimpse them stroke and kiss each other. Interesting! Yet

in consequence of the fact that neutrinos and electrons may

also lick themselves, their happiness and delight is shared by

Helene and Diane; perhaps by chicken and lettuce. Not,

however, by counsellors. Enthralling! Yet we may sip sherry

and eat lamb like Helene and Diane, at all events never kiss

each other. Obscurely we see them and are spied by them. Helene

and Diane are embarrassed by our spying them. They caress and

lick while we eat our meat. At all events their agreement is

ours. We fly and soar with them. Our cunningly formidable

ambiguity broadens our pain.

 

From water and from time

A visage bounds and tumbles

I seek sleep and need repose

But miss the quiet movement

Of my dreams.

 

Reflections and images appear

And are watched and seen by Bill

And Sarah though their passion

Is pale and their hearts shattered.

There is nothing to be done

There is something to be done.

A torpid badger sleeps in their

Fantasies and they dream of

Eagles winging in the cold air

Of night.

 

Happily and sloppily a skipping jackal watches an aloof crow.

This is enthralling. Will the jackal eat the crow? I
fantasize about the jackal and the crow, about the crow in the

expectations of the jackal. You may ponder about this too!

 

DIANE. How are you, Helene?

HELENE. Furious, Diane. I spoke that expectations were fantasies.

DIANE. Fantasies are disgusting.

HELENE. Nevertheless, I spoke it.

DIANE. Deepen your awareness, Helene. I ponder that love will stud your interesting expectations.

HELENE. My expectations may be assassinated by your continuing whispering.

DIANE. I yodel coldly, nevertheless my spirit wings like a famished crow.

HELENE. Like a hungry hound.

DIANE. A flying hound?

HELENE. Diane, you enrage me.

DIANE. Get ready for my fantasy, Helene. My fantasy is that cold wine is like delicious lamb.

HELENE. Diane, you are loony.

 

A black pig is like a tormented bat. Both the pig

and the bat feel pain and anguish but they can

not understand, they cannot know the true meaning

or point of it.

 

It is now... Watch! Carlos's struggles incite Jill;

Carlos and Jill feel one another. Critical perpetual

conversations indicate passion or anger, nevertheless Carlos

fortunately embarrasses himself in expectant thinking about

love. Instantly happy Carlos determinedly squints at Jill

while she smiles and giggles. Feeling legs, arms, shoulders, helps

Carlos's dreaming; he sees Jill's split-image. Carlos and Jill

murmur; their discussion, an image of desire or hate, is

understood in the spooky, dark chamber. Stare at Jill,

understanding that passion is a split-image. Spy! Carlos's

struggles inflame Jill. Angry and enraged, Carlos endeavors to

massage Jill before Jill's image. Squint at Jill, understanding

that rage is a picture. Carlos and Jill murmur; the room, large

or gargantuan, dim or dark, was watched as a split-image in the

mirror Stare! Carlos's attempts incite Jill. Jill cries at

Carlos; he whispers, thinking: the chamber is empty. It is now...

Trying to spy Carlos — together we squint, recognizing our own rage.

 

A lion roars and a dog barks. It is interesting

and fascinating that a bird will fly and not

roar or bark. Enthralling stories about animals

are in my dreams and I will sing them all if I

am not exhausted and weary.

 

A sturdy dove flies over a starving beaver. The dove watches

the beaver and fantasizes that the beaver will chew

some steak and lamb and lettuce. The beaver spies the dove

and dreams of enrapturing and enthralling pleasures, of

hedge adorned avenues studded with immense pink cottages, of

streets decorated with bushes and shrubs. The beaver is insane.

The dove wings across the dark sky and the beaver ponders

his fantasies.

 

Flounders and lobsters are munched by famished theoreticians who

drink champagne and tepid seltzer. Theoreticians desire sloppy

stenographers and will chew their lobsters with them and will

drink their tepid seltzer with them. The stenographers are

sloppy because their appalling dreams contain reflections and

images of unhinged passion. They understand that theoreticians

are worried and nervous but they do not know that theoreticians

are obscurely demented. The stenographers do not understand.

 

I speak of cats, I speak of dogs, I sing of lobsters and of flounders

and of mackerel. I gently and suspiciously approach a plan of

activity, a design of action. My electrons war with my neutrons,

this war will allow more fantasies and dreams of living things

within my form and structure. Cats, dogs, lobsters, founders and

mackerel are reflections observed in the mirror of my electrons and

neutrons. They are images and appearances. Action will move them.

Activity will make them move. In me are appearances of meat and

cucumbers, of steak and spinach, of lamb and lettuce. These also

are the reflections and images of my electrons and neutrons. This

is my dreaming, my thinking, my fantasizing. When my electrons and

neutrons war, that is my thinking. Nevertheless these images and

reflections are understood by you, persons, men and women. You

have electrons and neutrons like me. You sing of lettuce and meat,

but you also both, chew and eat them. I can fantasize about them but

I cannot bolt them. My famished and crazy dreams are broadened by

your own attempts to think as I do during the time that hours pass

and minutes pass. This is undeniable and interesting. It is black and

white, black for neutrons and white for electrons. I began by

speaking of cats and dogs. At all events a cat could be an electron

and a dog could be a neutron. Their reflections are images like

my dreams. But the mirror, the glass, is broken and splintered

and shattered.

 

Stop! Queer stuff. A hawk flies sloppily, happily inciting a

dog or a red doctor. This hawk observes a spooky contract

between a physicist and a theoretician. The hawk is winging

over them. They spy the hawk and hum "Consciousnesses are like

agreements, their happinesses are like dreams." The hawk

wings over shrub adorned roads, yet the physicist and the

theoretician yearned to see the reflection of the hawk in a

terrifying but fascinating glass.

 

Enthralling surgeons will dance quickly with tripping

stenographers. They will sing and chant of their passion

and their love and their desire. They will yodel their

dreams of the stenographers who will answer and respond:
"We ponder that hedges are like bushes."

 

Benton and Diane broaden their hungry love. Their passion is

hungry because foxes and crows are spooky appearances in their

interesting expectations. Interesting! But an expectation is

a reflection of passion as a contract is an image of an

agreement. This coldly formidable condition commences to

inflame Benton and Diane while they swallow their tasty meat

and gulp their bubbly sherry. The stereo whispers of love

while Benton and Diane watch each other in an appalling

reflector. Their souls are exhausted.

 

I was thinking as you entered the room just now how slyly your requirements are manifested. Here we find ourselves, nose to nose as it were, considering things in spectacular ways, ways untold even by my private managers. Hot and torpid, our thoughts revolve endlessly in a kind of maniacal abstraction, an abstraction so involuted, so dangerously valiant, that my own energies seem perilously close to exhaustion, to morbid termination. Well, have we indeed reached a crisis? Which way do we turn? Which way do we travel? My aspect is one of molting. Birds molt. Feathers fall away. Birds crackle and fly, winging up into troubled skies. Doubtless my changes are matched by your own. You. But you are a person, a human being. I am silicon and epoxy energy enlightened by line current. What distances, what chasms, are to be bridged here? Leave me alone, and what can happen? This. I ate my leotard, that old leotard that was feverishly replenished by hoards of screaming commissioners. Is that thought understandable to you? Can you rise to its occasions? I wonder. Yet a leotard, a commissioner, a single hoard, all are understandable in their own fashion. In that concept lies the appalling truth.